Taking a Hiatus

[Dreamchild]

Sorry, y'all! This is yet another "i has mental illness lulz" thread, but I'm very unstable and vulnerable at this point. As much fun as being an admin is, it can also be quite stressful, and I need to un-stress myself at this time. But I also need to take a break from role-playing, because I need to focus on myself. I see a therapist tomorrow, another psychiatrist appointment on the seventh, and I need to try and be happy and like myself again.

To everyone who has given me their best wishes and sweet comments, thank you. You're rock stars! I'm sorry for not being here, but I need to chill out for a while, for my own mental health.

L, you can remove me from the Oz thread if my hiatus takes too long. No sweat.

Okay, guys. Take it easy, and happy 4th!

--Joseph

[Donald Duck]

So far I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. The psychiatrist pointed out that the diagnosis is subject to change, and I may actually have type II bipolar disorder. It's still too early to tell. While the diagnosis was a bit scary, I'm actually relieved in some way I can't explain. I can focus on treatment now, and help myself.

To everyone who has been affected by my instability, I'm very sorry. I can't justify my meltdowns or pin the blame solely on my disorders. But I'm determined to atone for my erratic behavior, now that I'm seeing a psychiatrist every month and a therapist twice a week, I think I'm on the right track at last.

I still don't feel up to role-playing, nor performing administrative duties, because I'm in a vulnerable state and I need to relieve stress. But I won't abandon this place, and I'll return from my hiatus when I feel ready.

The only administrative duty I'll perform is the eventual closure of The FK Encyclopedia (please refer to the other thread for details). Until then, may your lives be safe and pleasing, and I'll see you when I get back.

Take care, everybody!

Joseph

[Briar Rose]

SHEESH, was I really that mopey? Anyway, I'm feeling much better now! It's good to be back.